Friday, September 18, 2009

Change, is it good or bad?

For some people, they LOVE change! Change it all! I am NOT one of those people. I do not like change. For whatever reason. And as I sit everything is changing!

Yesterday it hit me like a ton of bricks! I went and visited our new day care yesterday. Now don't take this the wrong way, it was a nice school, and I being the over protective parent that I am would never send my children someplace I wasn't comfortable with, not for ANY reason. But I am so focused on what I am losing by leaving the Peanut Gallery, that I cannot see all of the good in the new place. The new director probably thinks I am completely C.R.A.Z.Y! We toured the school, all decorated in their latest theme of "Comic Book Characters", straight with Bugs Bunny's Rabbit Hole, and a full size Incredible Hulk on the wall that Austin will LOVE! We went to her office to talk about their policies and so on, and what did I do, I sat there and CRIED! My 1st meeting with this woman and I am CRYING! WTH is wrong with ME! Am I completely NUTS? I'm in a perfectly normal day care, with excellent teaching philosophy, with highlights on theatrics and performing, PERFECT for Madison! And I am CRYING! Again, I do not like change. The Peanut Gallery has been a HUGE part of my life for the better part of the last 15 years. I worked there myself, many years ago, but from that I still knew most of the teachers when we started Madison there about 5 years ago. I trust them COMPLETELY, with the most important people I know! I trust that they love my children, they protect them, they educate them, and most of all they genuinely CARE about their well-being. I KNOW THAT, without a doubt 100%! I know that because I know THEM so WELL! And no matter what I do, I don't have that at a new school. You can't recreate that level of trust. So I tell myself, I know this change will cause some emotional discomfort to my kids, but in the long run I think they will like it, but is it worth it? Is it worth the financial savings, is it worth the convenience, is it worth it?

In all my craziness I am sending in Biddy for her review of the new school too! Just to be sure that it is just my own fear of change that is driving my current opinions and observations. We are talking about the 2 most important people in my universe after all! I want to be 100% sure this is the right place for us! This day care that "accidentally got into show business" as they call themselves. They are loosely montessori based, they have "performance" class daily, they are active in The Colony city events, our beloved Ms Cheri the traveling dance instructor teaches there as well. My boss's grandson has gone there his whole 6yrs of life, and she loves it! I'm pumping myself up here people! :-) And they do offer cameras that I can watch from my desk all day if I so chose!


AnneYarbs79 said...

You are a good mommy- and I'm sure the crying was about a million other things, too. Moving ranks up there with death on the stress meter.

Give the new school a few months- you as an old teacher know how long it takes kids to learn the new routine and rules. If you notice a difference in them after that... head for Plan B. I'm sure its awesome, though! It will just never be the PG.